Hello UPM !!

Assalamualaikum :)
how are you? i hope you guys fine :) too bad, i'm not felling well..
having stomachache, rasa macam nak menangis je tahan sakit ni.. ouchhhh !
Today, i wanna share about my story and experience.. Alhamdulillah, syera dapat sambung belajar :)

haaa... that's my offer letter, dapat sambung dekat UPM ( universiti putra Malaysia )
registration day is on 2nd Sept 2013.. dahh sambung degree dah kita ni.. tak sangka.. pantas sungguh masa berlalu.. pejam celik pejam celik dah 4 bulan sebenarnya syera membesarkan badan di rumah haha :D
Masa ni sahaja lah dapat duduk rumah sepuasnya.. nanati dah habis belajar mesti sibuk dengan kerja..
Syera dapat sambung belajar di Fakulti Sains, di bawah course "major kimia petroelum".. ramai yang bila syera sebut course ni berpendapat, syera ambil course engineering.. idk why.. hmmm...
and one more perception is, after this I will work under Petronas company.. hmm why ahh?? Actually, i pon tak tahu sangat about that course.. I just terima tawaran.. I ada jugak terasa nak mintak rayuan tukar course but i dont think so yang diorang akan layan kann.. so, just accept it.. Maybe ni lah ketentuan yang Allah dh takdirkan.. Apa yang penting buat yang terbaik..
Haisshh banyak pulak bercerita haha... nahhh tengokkk ni...

that's my luggage, baggage.. haha.. ni baru sikit sebenarnyaaaa ! Yang baru dikemaskan, ada lagi tertinggal kat rumah aunty yang tak packing lagi.. Adehh boleh demam melayan nak kemas semua ni, hehe.. Almaklumlah saya ni gugurl, banyak sikit cekadaknyaa..
Syera di tempatkan di kolej 5, dulu my aunty ponn dapat kolej 5, hehe ada jugak yang ikut jejak langkah keluarga.. and now, baru i dapat tahu yang my family mostly UPM student..
I feel so proud :)
And alhamdulillah semua yang belajar kat UPM berjaya belaka..
so, i hope, i can be like them.. Ameen !

Hopefully, semua akan berjalan dengan lancar.. Pls pray the best for me dear friends..
that's all for this time ! goodnight!  ;) sweet dreamm..

first experience :)

Assalamualaikum :) salam hari rabu !
how are guys? lamaaaaanyaaa tak update belog ni.. bersawang daaahh rasanyaa.. :D
haha.. now i'm officially alumni of asperian, yeaaayy !!
but it is not the main purpose updating this blog..
actually, i wanna share to you guys about my first day as a workers..
it is not fun as what i'm imagine.. haha
of course lah the first word yang akan keluar dari mulut ni ialah PENAT GILER !!
haha.. almaklumalah saya ni tak pernah bekerja , even masa lepas SPM tuuu..
memanjang duduk rumah.. and bila first time keje rasa macam nak jerit jee!
sejujurnya lah kan, memang tak setimpal bayaran yang diberi dengan kerja yang dibuat hahaa
kalau nak dibandingkan kerja dengan mama dengan kerja yang dibuat sekarang ni..
haisshh memang macam langit dengan planet pluto lah kann..
aku kerja dengan mama angkat2 barang sikit, dah dapat dekat seratus lebih, ni aku kerja dari pagi sampai petang baru dapat lima belas hinggit... haiisshh
kalau tak kenangkan nak try buat kuih raya memang tak lah nak kerja ni.. haha
opppss lupa pulak nak bagi tahuu..
aku kerja sebagai pembuat kuih raya :') proudly to say,, haha
so anyone yang nak try request beli kuih raya dengan aku boleh jeee.. amatlah dialu-alukan :)
and aku dah rasa kuih raya dia.. memang sedap.. yang paling buat aku rasa awesome kuih raya dia, "semprit capucino" sedaaaapnyaa !
and kuih raya dia ni akan dihantar ke singapore, so you guys can imagine dia punya qualiti kuih raya tu sendiri lahhh kann...
and not only that..
tu baru hari pertama bekerja tauuuuu.. tapi malangnyaaa,
hari kedua aku dah jatuh sakit, maybe over sangat kerja.. badan tak boleh nak adapt dengan benda-benda yang memenatkan kott
sebab sebulan lebih dok melahu kat rumah kaaaannn
and aku kena gastrik yang agak teruk lahh keesokkannyaaa.. so terpaksa lah cuti and pergi klinik dapatkan ubat..
then, the doctor said, my gastric maybe because of stress.. too much stress..
and i'm not deny it.. yelaaahh mahu tak stress nya kerja macam apaaa..
so, aku pon amik mc 2 hari.. and taktahu nak sambung kerja atau takk haha ;D
tapi maybe pergi kot sebab lagi berapa minggu je dah nak tutup.. just kerja untuk mengisi masa lapang aku..
and aku merasakan pergi kerja tu penting sebab at least kita boleh train badan kita untuk bekerja masa akan datang,. and what i mean is pilih lah kerja yang betul-betul sesuai dan bermanfaat..
so that's all for this night.. anyway, sorry for the language.. GILER ROJAK post kali ni..
and rasa teruk sangat.. haha.. nak padam balik macam malass.. sorry ya :') lain kali tak buat lagi..
goodnight ^^,

Think and Thought

I still remember this is my first task to write a journal for my english course.. Enjoy ! :)

How I feel about UPM“THE BEST !” That is the first impression I had of University Putra Malaysia, UPM when I was scouting around for a university to do my foundation in. Coming to study here probably one of the best decisions I have made about my education.
Truly speaking it increases my confidence level to be part of UPM as a student of foundation of science agriculture. Many of the times I think what I will do after completing my foundation of science agriculture. As this is my first semester in here.
I got respect , love, caring, nature, company of my classmates and support also appreciate from my lecturer, Dr. Jambari, Dr.Zaizi, Dr. Shuhazlly, Madam Hazimah and Dr. Zakaria. They are inspiring people for me, also I respect them very much. They motivated all the studentsin the class and having influencing power on them.
Even though I have past three weeks over here, I have many sweetest memory concerning it. I have got such good friends, Syeera,Erra, Emmy, Jijoo, Nik, Mai and many friends more who help me in study. They are very much caring and supportive friends.
I was so impressed by the beautiful scenery and conducive campus and its educational policy as well as the open minded and enterprising spirit of the people. UPM lecture and instructors are really helpful and knowledgeable. Without their warm support, I will not able to carry on my studies here. The most important reason I choose UPM is because it provides a cultural diversity and peaceful place for studies. Wherever I turned, the environment was refreshingly green and delightful place to learn in.
Other than that, UPM also well-known as an excellent avenue for research university. It’s not easy to continue and further our studies at UPM. Only certain people are selected to continue their studies at UPM. On the other hand, library in UPM are well provided. I love this library very much. UPM’s Sultan Abdul Samad library has a very good collection of subscribed journals, variety types of books,and this really helps me as a student to smoothly progress through my assignments.
Moreover, being a UPM student now, I can see for myself the UPM’s well-planned in order to prepare students with strong basic and deep interesting in the agriculture and science fields. The foundation students also have high tendency to pursue undergraduate degrees in the same field. It is privilege for us.
Last but not least, I am absolutely love the excellent facilities available in UPM for effective learner and research - it just makes student life so much easier. I am loving a every minute of my campus life here !

Group Fourteen :')

HOLLA AND GOOD EVENING :D

NEXT post about my group.. basically this post more to picture,, i want to share you about how we end our foundation and the memorable memories in my life :')

i love you guys.. love you so much !

the first picture is about girls day out.. haha..

its already 12 a.m but we still hang out.. :D 

this is my classmate and also my best friend :') from the right is mai, fana, emmy, nik and me :')

 just like my family.. they help me a lot.. thanks for being my friend :) <3 cantik tak view? UPM lah kata kan.. haha

this boy is my best friend too :D kami sama-sama suka buat gaya comel.. ni baru satu gmbar.. tp yang lain tu private.. for my personal only .. sorry ^^,

yang ni pulak, mula mula nak amik gambar yang girl2 je.. skali semua boboy nak masuk skali.. so amik lah sekali kannn,,,

with ex leader, sareh akmal and his bestfriend, nasrullah :)

ok ini event semalamm, kitorang group buat bbq.. alhamdulillah dapat sambutan yang baik plus ramai gak lah yang hadir.. and membantu.. so far lelaki buat kerja dengan baik .. sangat puas hati.. happy je kan muka dorang membakar ayam tu.. haha.. and sangatlah kenyanggg tau ! 

this is me,, sempat lagi pose kan,, hihi,, masa masa curi tulang :D

lepak-ing time :'D penat woooo bbq tu,, nampak tak muka letih tu,,hihi

masih sempat pose .. bbq at bukit ekspo :')

menjamu selera dengan enaknyaa... uuuuummm yummyyy !! 

alhamdulillah semua berjalan dengan lancar, even pada asalnya nak makan kfc jer, oleh sebab aku yang bg idea kat mizah untuk buat semua ni, and mizah terima and diorang pun banyak sangat membantu, semuanya berjalan dengan mudahh.. sangat have fun because kami adakan game and something yang memorable.. hopefully ukhwah ini dapat dieratkan and still keep in touch walau nanti dah habis asasi.. i love you so much!

_hug and kiss for you guys_XOXO

Gala Dinner Asper :')

Assalamualaikum.. hei dude how are you?
i'm fine.. alhamdulillah..
ok setelah sekian lama sudah tidak meng'update' blog yg dh berhabuk ni..
now tiba lah masanya..,
basically, i exam this weekk.. i mention again, THIS WEEK !! haha
but, langsung tak buat preparation because i dont know how to start it..
when i sit at my study table,, i jadi gelisah,, so i come back to my bed untuk dapatkan ketenangan tu,, haha
and i feel so tenang till i sleep back.. hoho
the purpose i wrote this blog not to bebel or bla bla bla.. but to show you guys bout my dinner..
my asper batch dinner,,
walaupun bukan dinner yang paling best tapi puas lahh jugak hati ni :')

now let me introduce you the first picture.... tadaaaaa..

ber"inai" time :') hihi.. oleh kerana tak boleh nak buat bukan bukan..
jadi kami ni berinai lahh, hihi.. just untuk suka suka.. tapi apa pun seronokk lah..
yang tak bestnya lepas 3hari hilang dah inai tu,,,

ok ni masa dalam dewan GMI :) sumpahhhh lapar.. lapar giler.. tp maintain dengan senyuman yang lapar tu haha.. kena dengar ucapan dulu baru dia kasi makan tau,, haha,, sabar jelaahhhh kan..
now nak komen makanan masa dinner tu.. basically ok..
tapi ada lah makanan yang boleh mendatangkan marah haha..
nasib baik air dia sangat sedap tau.. kalau tak merajuk tak nak makan.. haha..
apa pun thanks for the friends yang bertungkus lumus sediakan tempat and well prepared event..
thanks.. i will show a few memorable picture at gala dinner :')



the open ceremony <3

next with the beloved one :')my crush on sem one,enemy because kami selalu je nak menang antara satu sama lain, masing-masing tak nak kalah.., best friend because i can share everything with him, love because he is too kind for me, .. ;D

and lastly this is my best friend :')

MTD Passing Out Parade 2012

hye hye hye ! holaaa ^^,
i'm back.. i just having a dinner with my beloved family..
Al Hamdulillah :0 wahhhh ! kenyang sangat ! perut ni pon dah mula ketat sesangat , hehe..
tapi takpe lah.. cuti sem kan :') persetankan je semuanya.. hihi..
oke, i wanna share with you guys about my bradeehh passing out parade day..
it was very awesome ! yeahh , as a sister.. surely, i'm proud with my brother..
he had completed his studies at royal military collage for about 2years , sg besi.
alhamdulillahh... now, he waiting for his spm's result.. 

all RMC student ready for the parade

Bersama Panglima tentera Udara Malaysia .. oke seriously perbarisan student rmc memang terbaik :)

let me introduce my brother, arif @ doremon :) and beside him is me ! hehe

this is my beloved family :) <3

apa yang saya boleh dapat dari passing out parade day ni, student rmc was very good in marching.. yeaahhh sesuai lah kan,, diorang kan dah memang kena train jadi askar.. so, disiplin dia orang boleh dilihat, masa kawad tu sendiri.. nampak kesungguhan mereka untuk memastikan hari bersejarah mereka berjalan dengan lancar.. so, no wonder people will impress with them.. because of their achievement.. they're good in studies and also in military training.. GOOD JOB RMC BOY! keep it up ! good luck :')

that's all for tonight,, may God bless us :)  Hug and Love- XOXO 

semester break !

hye guys.. what's up? anything interesting happens today?
emmm.. i feel bloody bored today.. donno what to do...
yeahhh.. this week is my semester break.. its about 10 days :) not like other people, they get almost one month sem break compared to me,, hemm...
it sounds good right? holiday... but i feel bored very much ! donno why.. :'( emm
i just arrived my hometown yesterdayy.. then, mum and dad told me that my great grandmother was in the hospital.. so, we go there..
until now, i don't have any specific thing to do to spent all my holiday time..
i can imagine that it will be the same as the time after my spm holiday... freaky bored !! haha
my parent will asked me to wake up early in the morning, wash the clothe, cook, and it will be my daily routine for this weekk ! arrrrhhhhhhh!
i want something different..
but now, everything is change.. i hate it ..
maybe, i feel bored because i can't get you anymore..
i want your attention.. i want you to care of me like before..
yesss! i eager to get your love and attention..
but now, i'm tired,
i'm not tired to love him but i'm tired to get his love and attention..
he make me smile and happy everyday..
i miss that moment very muchh.. i miss him badly..
i miss to spent time with him,, watching the movie together.. had a great time with himm..
but now, everything is gone.. i don't know either i can face it or not..
yeahh, he still with me.. he still accompany me.. but not like before..
the time that i can feel that our love is strong..
he loves me more than everything.. he loves me no matter happens..
i'm still asking, why this happen to me? what my faults?
i can only pray the best for us.. i want him
no matter happen, i will be with him..
i still remember that he ask me to wait for himm.. yeahhh
In Shaa Allah , i will..
that's all for this time
_shera_ :)

War Game Tanjung 2012_gen8 :)

setelah sekian lama saya tidak 'mengupdate' blog ini, akhirnya tercetus juga idea apa yang hendak dituliskan di laman ini, haha,, oke ayat yang sangat "gramatis" :)
A+ for my BM lah! haiiishhh ~
alhamdulillah, akhirnya berakhir sudah semesta pertama ku di UPM , setelah 4bulan mengambil masa menyesuaikan diri dengan keadaan yang agak berlainan dengan zman dahulu.
belajar kat Universiti ni memang susah tajuk tajuk pembelajarannya, dah lah banyak tajuk yang nak kena cover tapi mcm mana pon, belajar kat u sebenarnya lebih mudah nak score sebab based on first sem ni, apa yang korang belajar, tu je yang keluar.. takde macam SPM dulu, belajar macam nak giler tapi yang keluar alahaiii, sikitnyaaaaaa.
as long as u do what your lecturer ask you to do, insylh, u oll's boleh adapt dengan situation dekat u ni :) and kerja mesti on time siap, kalau tak u oll's akan rasa beban yang berat gilerr ahhh nak siapkan kerja kerja tu semua.
kena selalu revise and buat jadual untuk belajar sebab nanti pasti akan ter'kelain' masa masa yang kosong tuh.. tak pon asik nak hang out je,,, haha,, mcm aku lahh,, asal free je gatal kaki ni nak jalan,,, mentang mentang lah bus nak ke ktm free, mmg rajin lah jawabnya..
apa pon, rasanya aku kena tukar style belajar sem satu dengan sem dua ni, kena selalu belajar on weekdays, tapi kalau tak belajar weekend pon takpe, asalkan weekdays tu dah cover,, kalau nak nazak lah aku nak cover byk2 topic tu, huhu..
sebab kalau nak harapkan tutorial yang lecturer bagi memang susah lahhh, sebab bukan semua boleh bergantung dengan tutorial especially biology lah, haha..
sebenarnya aku bukan nak cerita pasal life kat universiti pon, haha, sebab tak menarik sngat

sebenarnyaaaa,...
yang aku nak cerita life kat upm sebagai budak asasi bila habis sem pertama..
oke kami diwajibkan kan , OKE WAJIB YA, ikut aktiviti WAR GAME ni,,,
at first aku memang tak brapa kisah sngat, sebab aku dh biasa ikut camp mcm ni, tapi takdelah sampai 'dasyat' mcm ni, terkejut odennn !
mula mula, sampai kat tanjung Perak, wuhhhh, pedalaman seyh tempat dia,.. dengan jalan yang sempit, kami terpaksa naik 4wheeledrve... dengan driver yang bawak tu mcm nak bagi kitaorang ni lemah jantung,, memang best lah kan :) syg pakcik driver ni !!
oke, smpai2 je kitaorang dah kena seberang sungai dengan bawa beg beg yang besar2 tu, dengan arus sungai yang agak deras, apa lagi, lalu jelahhh, siap ada pertandingan pulakk tu, siapa cepat dia menang,, haha,,, biasa lh budak2, pantang ada game, mesty nak lumba kan,, haha..oke then,
kitaorang dibawa ke camp site@hutan hutan yang tak berapa tebal, tapi agak merbahaya jugak lahh.. part yang paling tak disukai disinilah bermulanyaaa... kami hnya diberi dua helai kanvas , beras, 10 biji telur, 3tin sardin, tepung dll untuk dimakan 40 orang,, haha,,

disini , aku nak buat pengakuaan, aku bukan tak nak tolong korang msak, tp mcm dh ramai je kat dapur, oke , msk lah, gpon aku mkn 5 suap je lpas tuhhh , hehe
kerana 5suap nilah aku kena gastrik mlm tu, nasib baik ada shira yang tolong aku seludup roti, hehe, tak leh tahan dh sakitnya masa tu,,  apa pon, experience masa tu memang terbaik dengan nak disediakan tandas tanpa dinding, dan air boleh amek kat sungai yang megalir untuk sebarang aktiviti, hehe, best kan, it's fun actually :)
for the second day, we had a great activity there.. kami main tiubing, obstacle game(rempuh halangan), etc..
mcm mcm lagi, apa yang lagi menarik ialah, kami makan di selangor tapi tidur di perakk, hehe :) korang ada?? war game kat Jasin ada?? takde tauuu ! hehe
thanks to PUSAT ASASI kerana memberikan kami satu pengalaman yang amat bermakna sepanjang hidup ini, insyaAllah, pelajar asasi GENERASI 8 akan mencetuskan evolusi baruu , yezaaaaa :)
love u oll's
this is my group :) TANGO !

new life in UPM :')

hai guyssss :) how are u bebehh ?
rasa macam dah lama gilerr tak update blogg .. now, i wanna share to u all bout my life in UPM as a foundation student here.. i'm glad to be here..because i have the best ever roommate, gorgeous classmate, fantastic frenz !! now, i start with a new experience as a university student..

this is my first day went to upm, we're on the way to the registration place :) beside me is my lovely aunty, she company me until i enter to the collage ;D
oke, now i want to introduce u my best roommate :) they're very caring , loving eachh other.. i love them soo muchh . MUUUAAHH ! haha...
we study, eat and also sleep together, anything we did must be together hehe :)

THIS IS MY ROOMMATE :), _aziera, syah, erra, joji, shira and me, syeraaaa :') love you guyss
next, i wanna to introduce u my classsmate , hehe
here, this is my leader, SAREH or we call him PAPA, hehe

he really cute, right ? hehe. i really respect him because he really responsible,n also kind person :')
he did his job very well, u're really good boys :) hehe,,
do you want to know, every week we need to do an experiment in 3 hours, and must past up the lab report on the same day, haaahhh ! it's really crazy u know, there's a lot of experiment to do, and the same time we need to finish up the report.. haaahh, stresss, HELL ! haha

haha, ni salah satu gmbr yg mereka tgah buat experiment, walaeeiii, hehe, :')
tgk microscope dy, canggih giler tau kalau nak compare dgn skolah punya,, hehe,
tapi apa pun, i tetapp enjoy dgn kerja2 yang demonstater tu bg,, walaupun susahhh !

oke, next i wanna to talk bout my fav. lecture, here , this is DR. Zakaria :')
he's a good teacher for me, i really impressed with him !!
he can talk english fluently ! wauuuuu ! GREAT bebehh !

ni, masa DR tgah bagi taklimat untuk subjek agriculture :')
I LOVE AGRICULTURE DAMN MUCHHH ! haha
walaupun penat, tapi FUN sgt2 sbb dapat group yang BEST :')

haha, tgk lah gambar ni, FUN sangat2 kan :')
so, boleh imagine lah kan cm mana bestnya subjek agriculture tu ;D
hheee, ni sebahagian dr classmte je.. naik track yg disediakan :)
OK , memang best ,
oke, now, baru nak kenalkan GIRLS yang ada dalam class shera
but, ni tak sume ada.. hanya sebahagian je :')

happy kan kitaorang :')
mmang satu pengalaman yang tak dapat nak lupakan bila berada di sini...
hope sume berjalan dgn lancar, insyaallah , aminnn :)
kalau ada gurls mesty ada boys kan :)
nahhh ni boys dalam class syera >

haha, FUN tak gambar ni ? best kan tgk dorg :)
ni mase lepas fotografi session, sesuai lah kan
mmeng VOGUE giler lah kan, haha.. tapi apa pun , dowg oke, best
walaupun bilangan class tak lah seramai dulu, tp class tetap ceria n tak hambar lah k;;
hehe
lastly, this is me , NUR SYAHIRAH :)
oleh kerana ramai sangat nama SYAHIRAH dalam class, so please call me syera,
pronounce correctly please, hehe
oke babeeh, enough for this time, i wanna to pack my good and back to my aunty house..

bUbye babe :')
i love to smile, so please don't spoil it :')
_u are the reason why i should keep on smiling every single day_
UPM, k13, 1401 pm (",)
last but not least, please pray the best for me, miss u guys <3
SPREAD OF LOVE !

MRS.ABA :)

did u know what meant by MRS.ABA ? now, let me tell you :)

M_MAWAR JUWITA
R_RASHIDAH
S_SYAHIRAH
.
A_AZIAH
B_BIBI
A _AINI

this is my beloved best friends forever :)
we shared many things together, we laughing , crying, fighting, studying together..
there's a lot of sweet moments between us , i love them very muchh !
i hope our friendship will long lasting and never end forever..
i miss u gurls, i'm sure we can achieve our ambitions and be success then,
walaupun, setiap orang ada kepala dan anginnya yang tersendiri, kita tetap bahagia kan :)

perkenalan syahirah bermula dengan :-
cdah yang tegur saya dulu, "hai, siapa nama awak? jum kita rehat sama-sama " hehe
and till now, we be best friends :)  walaupun mula2 ziah tak nak layan budak baru mcm i ni, tapi lastly, kami kawan baik smpai hari ni,

ni lah kami , mrs.aba, we love each other, pray the best for us, miss u frenz ;)

NICE MOMENT

I LOVE YOUR SMILE :)

wahhh! it was a nice moment when i'm join the UPNM cadet officer candidates camp <3
there's a lot of thing i learn when i join this camp..
best sangat sebab dapat housemate and roommate yang understanding, kelakar, open minded
setiap saat yg berlaku kat sana sangat indah ..
dari hari pertama datang...sampai hari ke sembilan .. tak sangka dapat smpai ke sana..
on the first day :
1- kami ukur berat badan, rabun, bmi and tinggi..
     yang penting shera lepas semua yang dikehendaki... :p 
     hehe, so i go for the next step...
the others day,
we have the medical checkup, dental, physically training, running, and many things
the most important moment that i can't forget is spent my 'leisure' time near the big tree with my housemate..
we talk about many thing , ghost story, love story, imaginary story..on calling for a hours.. haha.. best giler :)
we do something that we never do before...
 then , the best part is i be friends with the smily boy
i'm start be friends with him because we are in the same group in an activity..
so, we start be closed and smile each other...
everyday i'm waiting him to smile back to me.. haha..
it was the best moment at terendak camp.. i hope that we can be friends forever..
kat sana jugak, ramai rupanya yang pakai gg besi, hehe, tp dowg tetap nampak cantik dgn gg besi tu...
budak terendak memang sangat seronok...
nak tau tak, kita org sume tidor takde kipas tauuu, hehe..
panas gilerr best sebb dapat sauna free ^^, tak payah g spa lagi >.<
at  last, aku terpaksa pulang sebab dah ramai student perempuan untuk medic, they just wanna the perfect score.. so, maybe i'm not deserve to be the UPNM student..
its oke, nevermind, i'll accept the fate :)
as my motivater said, don't look backward, but look forward..
keep smile, and dont ever give up,, trust your self, and be confident in anything we do...
so, thats all for this time,,
i miss u my frenz...
shaza, miera, dila, din, dina, popo, heera, kimi, mentadak, arif and also wan
_sherazara94.bandarputeraindah.batupahat.23april_

brake up time

Hai, Assalamualaikum <3
hey guys, how are u? how wonderful your life right now? i am sure u 'll be happy much much better than me..
i am not talking a lot of things, i am just wanna share how i feel after i am lost him..
u should know that the man will say and promise anything to us when he want us.. he'll say love, promise to be with u for every single time, he will make u trust him well.. but, u guys need to be careful with them.. they are not too bad, but if he not love u more, he'll hate you damn much ! sometimes, he do that because he wanna forget u, maybe he feel really dissapointed with us,i'm just wanna advice u too take care ur love.
because ur love will make you happy, will change tears to laugh, will change problem to happiness.. i love very much my lover.. he not the first lover but, he really really special in my life :)
he not a handsome guys, but he complete my life when iam been lonely, he make me smile when i crying..
if u read this note, u need to know, i love u as long as u don't replace me with other girls.. i'm admit that i ask u to let me go from u, but it not my intention..i'm really sorry..
if i could be far from u and forget all the memories, i'll ask for it..
u make me special in life ,
lastly, i hope u'll find the best and better girls than me, that could be took care of u..

_pergilah sejauh mungkin dan tak perlu kembali lagi_

 <3

       


                      sAyaNg dAn ciNta itU mMang sUkaR uNtk d'fAhaMi
                      aDakaH ciNta itU satU kesAlaHan daN pnYeksAan ?
                              ciNta bUkan sAje bUte maLaH pEkaQ ! ! !

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..CINTAI AKU..

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sedih btul la

kw langsung xpndi nak jge hti dan perasaan aq.. Hey! Kw inat aq pe ha??*marah ni!
Stakat mle2 boleh lah tahan..ni dah byk kali tau tk!sakitt!!!!
Aq harap kw akn rasakn cner yg aq rasa satu hari nanti..
Bia kw btul2 myesal n tahu m'ghargai perasaan permpuan!!!
Kw mmg kejam!
Aq akn inat tndkn kw pd aq ni smpi ble2!

lalala~

“gggrrrr…gggrrr…”(vibrate phone) lantas membuka mesej itu
“jangan menangis sayang.. terima lah keputusan abang ni dengan hati yang terbuka..”
Berbelas mesej aku terima dari Shafiq..
Dari mana dia tahu aku sedang menangis ini??arrrggghh!! pasti ckgu ana! Malunya!!
“ Salam ( tersedu-sedan).. ckgu bgthu Shafiq ea?”
“maaf iera..ckgu kasihan sangat pada iera..tak sanggup nak tengok iera terseksa macamni”..
“hek..hekk(nada tersedu)..tak..aa..apa lah ckgu..”
“tapi hanif yang bagitau pada Shafiq..” hisshh..siap kau hanif! Buat malu aku je..
“Iera jgn marah hanif pula ya”.. “iye ckgu..tee..terima kasih ckgu..”macam tau-tau je yang aku nak mara kat hanif..bisik ku sendiri..
Berlinang kembali air mataku..aku benar-benar menyayanginya!!


Abang janji abang tak kan tinggalkan iera.. sayang iera selalu.. iera lah yang sentiasa berada di hati abang..walauapa pun yang berlaku..abang tetap pilih iera..abang cinta iera sayang..
Itu lah kata-kata yang aku sering dengar dari bibir lelaki ini..lelaki yang amat ku cintai..tak pernah merasakan kehangatan dan gelora cinta ku begitu hebat sekali..setiap hari yang kulalui bagai ditiup angin lalu..aku seperti tidak merasakan detik-detik yang kulalui itu..indah sekali ketika itu..
tapi entah mengapa hari itu dia benar-benar berubah sekali..
“tinggalkan abang..jangan temui atau cari abang lagi..anggap abang tak pernah wujud dalam hidup iera.. dan anggap lah kita umpama tidak pernah mengenali antara satu sama lain” itu lah kata-kata terakhir dari lelaki yang bernama Shafiq..berombak-rombak dada ku mendengar ucapanya itu..mengapa kau melakukan sebegini Shafiq??apa salah ku terhadapmu?
“tapi napa Shafiq? Apa salah iera?” “tak perlu tahu..lupakan shafiq..please?!”tersentap ku mendengarnya..air mataku mula membasahi pipi ini..mengapa menghukum ku sebegini rupa? Dia terus berjalan meninggalkan ku seorang diri.. tersedu-sedan aku menahan keputusan lelaki ini..inikah ertinya cinta..


“Ini ckgu S” bibi memperkenalkan pada ku secret admire dia..
“oh yeah??wateva!” balas ku selamba..
“ha..tuh ckgu K, dulu I rapat dgn dia” bibi membalas..
Malas sebenarnya aku nak layan bibi ni..introduce sana sini pulak!dah lah baru lepas “heartbroken”..tak layan lah laki-laki ni..
“YES honey! Ada lagi yang u nak introduce?” balas ku..
“ha,,last last.. ni Z!! “balas bibi ringkas.. Z?????? Hairan ku mendengar nama itu,lalu ku menoleh ke arah lelaki itu..
Hu..he looks nice! Hahah, bisik ku sendiri! Ah! Laki semua sama!! GTH!!!!
“ iera.. dengar lah jap..” “yes..what?”
“pas ni u kene tolong I arrange pacal school magazine k? please..ha one more..nanti jumpa sir F.. pesan dia..be ready for photograph session! Please?”
“ha..yela yela.. ble nak bagthu ni? Hari ni ka?” bibi just mengangguk..


Muncul seorang jejaka di sisiku.. S rupanya..
“hai..can I have your number phone? “
“0177******..ada pape lagi?” “eakkkk???nothing”
“k..soey..tak de mud lah.. tata..see you again! Aku terus melangkahkan kaki ke kantin. Dahaga. Penat.sedih!
Malam itu..
Gggrrrrr…gggggrrrrr…(vibrate phone)
“hai..tak tidur lagi?”
“lum..sapa ni?” aku balas
“jejaka misteri”
Eakkk????sapa ni??kredit pulak dah habis!!!! Hissshh..spoilt la!! Ah bialah..nanti nanti je balas..hummm..now,,I need my beauty sleep and tenangkan fikiran dari fikir kan Shafiq!..
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“hai jejaka misteri!! I know who are you!”
“dah tau ea?gud!” “oke! “
“oke then!” hah! Da tak tahu nak reply apa ke mamat ni??pape jelah!
At the same time…
Aku mula berbaik dengan cikgu K..kadang kala timbul rasa sayang ini pada dia..tapi bila dia mula menyayangi ku..kadang aku terpaksa menjauhkan diri dari nya,,aku tak mahu perasaan yang tidak diingini timbul antara kami..just that!
Suatu hari..
“ckgu, kalau setakat nak layan wani..baik saya tak payah datang ke sini!” bentak ku geram..asyik dengan wani je..kenapa tah..
“hai..nada cemburu nampak??” diiringi ketawa nya..
“salah ke? Dah la, saya pulang dahulu.. assalamualaikum..”
Terdiam K ..Confuse ckgu K dengan sikapku,,namun dia hanya mampu tersenyum melihat keletah keanak-anakkanku..Iera..Iera..
Iera, kau umpama dedaunan segar yang tak pernah kenal erti layu..sentiasa kehijauan.. itulah yang selalu K katakan padaku..


“iera, petang ni kita ada sesi fotografi k? tolong saya arrange budak-budak ni..hopefully mudah kerja saya..” kata Sir F..
“orait !” balasku..
“nanti jumpa Sir S,,bagitahu pada dia sekali ya..please help me..”
“okie doki!” balasku ringkas
Aku. Bibi. Noni bekerjasama dengan S, F dan Z..haha..bibi tak habis-habis mengusik aku dengan Z..even pada mulanya aku “macam” suka..tapi nothing lah!
Dah selesai sesi fotografi..tiba-tiba..
“jum pergi minum dulu iera,” sapa Z
“eakk???oke je..tak kesah..” balasku..
“saya naik Sir F lah ya..” “ oke” balas Z
Ggggrrrrr…gggggrrrrr(vibrate phone)
Aku pun buka mesej..
“jumpa kat food court Mid V..” ha??S?? dia pun join ke..haha..tak kesah lah tambah kawan..
Kami lepak sampai lewat petang..haha..seronok lah jugak! At least aku dapat lupakan kesedihan aku pada Shafiq..kenapa lah dah 5bulan putus masih tak dapat bak lupakan dia..inikah namanya cinta??
On the way balik..aku naik S..
“how?best lepak?” “oke je..Cuma tired lah”
“biasa lah..banyak kerjakan?” aku Cuma mengangguk..

Lepas magrib
Ggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr……gggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrr…..ggggggggggrrrrrrrr(vibrate phone)
Banyaknya msej masuk?
1) “hai..” dari s
Then..msej dari bibi..
2) “ iera ,, I miss s so much” dari bibi

Confuse aku dibuatnya..aku terus membalas mesej s terlebih dahulu
“yes???”
“wtpe?” balasnya
“nothing” balasku..
Sejak itu..
Aku tak sangka yang aku bole jadi teman yang rapat untuk s ini..mula timbul rasa sayang ini terhadapnya..entah mengapa..mungkin salah satu alasan untuk aku cuba melupakan Shafiq..tak dinafikan..aku telah berjaya melupakan Shafiq setelah lelaki yang bernama S muncul dalam hidupku..tapi aku sama sekali belum jatuh cinta sebagaimana aku cinta kan Shafiq.. Shafiq lelaki pertama yang mengoncangkan hati ini..dan dia juga yang meremukkan perasaan ini!
Kadang aku penat melayan scenario kehidupan aku ni..tapi sekarang.. aku mula mendekati lelaki yang bernama s ini.. namun, hubungan aku dan S bukan sekadar teman malah..ahhhh…fikir lah sendiri!

Satu hari…
“ jum iera..ikut saya!” ucap s
“eakkk??? Pergi mana ni??” “ marilah ikut saya.. saya tak nak awak sedih sebab Shafiq lagi..please honey???!!”
Aku tak menafikan..aku dah sayang kat s ni..dia baik sangat melayan kerenah aku..jatuh sayang buatnya..
“tapi..before tuh..u have to close your eyes..ready?”
Wahh..gementar aku jawabnya!!!tak pe..follow je..
Setelah 20 minit…
“oke..bukak mata sekarang” bisik dia ke telingaku..
Ya tuhan.. cantiknya!!! Pemandangan yang tak pernah ku lihat sebelum ini..indah sungguh ciptaan mu ya ALLAH!!
“mulai sekarang, b tak nak baby sedih lagi pasal Shafiq ya..even b bukan milik baby utk selamanya..tapi b cuba untuk buat baby happy dengan hidup ni..” lantas, dia memberi ku ucupan di dahiku.. bahagia aku dengan nya..namun, dia bukan milik ku..itu yang perlu sentiasa aku ingat..arrrrgggg..kesedihan kembali menyelubungiku..
Di pantai minyak beku inilah dia menenangkan segala kesedihan diri ini terhadap Shafiq..sesungguhnya..masih jauh perjalanan hidup ini..mengapa aku bertemu denganmu s??sedangkan aku tak bisa memilikimu! Adakah kau hanya ingin mempermainkan perasaan ini atau secara tidak sengaja aku telah sayang padamu? Hum.. entahlah